The outro cover song by Raphiel Shannon
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-O7clFBPFmM
Since the beginning of this week series I have been making these videos first and foremost for myself. A preservation of the past to enable a better future is what I say. This video is by far my most potent example of that phrase.
I recorded this interview in a hotel room at 3 am in the morning on March 1st. I was very emotional and I am lucky to have captured my thoughts in that moment. You can see in my eyes and hear in my voice how tired I am, I had just gotten off a 12 hour day.
Two weeks later, as I sit here and write this, my thoughts are not the same. I see the world though different eyes. I am not the same person. Even though it has only been 14 days I have learned a great deal both about relationships and about myself as a human being. I am seeing for the first time mistakes I have made and characteristics that I never took the time to acknowledge that I exhibited.
I feel very good right now. Not in a complacent or a dopamine rush way but a living in the moment feeling that I rarely have. The last time I had this feeling was when I was sitting on a train in Japan this past fall. Today I road my bike around in circles while I talked on the phone and it felt incredible! Maybe it's that LA spring sun!
Thank you all for the support and love, I know I disappear for a while between videos. I am at 4,993 subscribers as I write this! Man, last year on March 14 I was at 300. I do believe that the comment section on my videos contains the most genuine people on this site. Something I didn't know existed when I started, so thank you for that!
Thank you for all the love! I will keep changing, I hope you will too!
Spencer
Shot on Sony A7rii with Canon nFD lenses.
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Week 18: I Am Becoming A Flake
Over Christmas I found myself getting overly frustrated when someone would cancel on me or go awol. I started to write a video about it and I realized that I was being frustrated by characteristics in others that I myself exhibited in the past and specifically, in 2016.
I then thought about making a resolutions video but that didn't feel natural because I'm not one for change because it's 1/1/20XX . So I made the following video! A video expressing my current thoughts.
Watching this video is a very good example of where my mind and thoughts are right now. Thoughts about Los Angeles and the people in it.
Making this video helped me to see the fault in my life. A fault I could easily see in others but never took the time to look for in myself.
Spencer
Week 16: The Formula Isn't Working
Making videos has never been this hard. I am pushing myself to make more because I miss the feeling of creating and I am at a time of my life where much is changing that I care to document.
This is a video to hopefully jumpstart a creative fall.
Thank you for watching.
Between Weeks: Traffic, Public Transit, and Osprey Atmos AG 65 Pack
We’re still in Downtown Los Angeles filming.
Our lunch Thursday was at 5:30pm exactly so I decided to take my camera around and explore some evening traffic.
It’s popular to make jokes about having a 9 to 5 when you work in the film industry. It does seem nice to have a set time everyday that I can expect to get off. Tonight we expect to get off at midnight.
But when I see traffic like this, I know there is no possible way I could deal with it 5 days a week twice a day for an entire career.
Sitting in a car waiting, just so I can get home and do it again.
Every car I look at, it is always one person. No one seems to carpool.
On Sunday I found myself in Pasadena so I decided to take the new 501 Metro line over to Burbank. This is the first Los Angeles bus I have to been on and it was a great experience.
At the max there were 2 other passengers. It was quick, it was cheap, and it only cost $1.75. Public transit is a steal in Los Angeles, I guess because no one uses it.
While riding on the bus I was reminded about how nice it is to have someone drive you around. Even if it’s a public bus. To not worry about all the hectic drivers and the ever worsening parking around Los Angeles. It’s a nice breath of fresh air.
I have been using my new/ used Osprey Atmos AG 65L backpack recently. I picked it up at a REI garage sale for a great price. It came with a torn drawstring but it is all covered under warranty by the manufacture.
The great part about this pack is the AG. It stands for Anti Gravity. When you put this pack on the pack grips you, it’s a feeling I haven’t felt before with a backpack. It feels like a koala bear is hoping you around the hips!
It’s a great pack. I have yet to use it on an actual trail but I will be sure to write about it when I do!
I will be working again next week on a TV show so there will not be a video. I am still working on my video about how I got into the film industry. It’s a hard one for me to make because it is a story that spans 3 years that I am trying to fit into a 3-4 minute video.
It will be a good one!
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